semaphore

we were sitting at the northbound stoplight on lamar and 24th; erasure was playing on the stereo. and it occurred to me how the town would be such a nicer place if all of the red lights were in the shape of hearts as opposed to circles.

camera breakdown

here's the full purchase of the canon 20d, line-by-line:

$1371.28 : canon 20d + 18-55 f3.5 lens. saved $340 with dell coupon and mfr's rebate.
$ 567.80 : 70-200 f4 lens. saved $50 with mfr's rebate.
$ 113.50 : 1G CF + 2 UV filters. saved $70 with in-store promotion.
$ 50.45 : tamrac velocity 9 camera bag. saved $20 by shopping around.
$ 20.00 : spare BP-511A battery. saved $30 with amazon.com promotion.
$ 89.06 : 2G CF II. saved $50 with in-store promotion and mfr's rebate.
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$2212.09 : net total
-$ 22.12 : discover card 1% rebate
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$2189.96 : grand total

with agressive shopping, i was able to get $560 off of the total list price of this set, which brought the grand total to within 10% of my original budget ($2000). i am delighted.

hochzeit

last night i had a dream where i was marrying the girl that i was dating. it was an outdoor ceremony that was right alongside a golf fairway. it had the aire of a conservative catholic ceremony, but there were only immediate family in attendance, and the priest was female. the bride was so amazingly happy about her wedding day, and her family was estatic about our union. most of the wedding literature was in german; it seemed as if her family was german. she was quite quite pretty.

and i was terrified. i so very much did not want to be wed for the rest of my life, but i simply could not say anything. i felt like i hardly knew this woman, let alone make her my wife. but i couldn't destroy her illusion of happiness--i could never bring someone down like that. and it killed me. i felt out-of-control and sentenced to my current state of terror and a future state of unhappiness. i felt like my mouth was taped shut, now and forever holding my lack-of-peace. and it was horrifying.